That has been the root of what I've felt as a whole for awhile.
Not tragically lost. Just not really being looked for.
Misplaced in the way that something is not really where it should be, where it was made to be, but no one really noticed enough to notice. But today God got me alone and said something to me.
And I don't want to forget what I heard.
He said, "Don't worry about the rush of this world.
Everyone is constantly going, but no one is getting anywhere fast.
You are set apart. So embrace it.
You must fall in love with being different instead of always striving to be the same.
You know My word.
You know My voice.
You know My promises.
They are written in your handwriting, all over every journal you have.
They are written in between the lines of everything you say and they speak without words through everything you do and they're written in all caps all over every heart that comes in contact with yours.
The busy, the chaos, the restlessness of what everyone else claims as just everyday "life"?
That standard was not made by Me.
Instead, be here.
Be here. Be all here. And just be. Be bent. Be broken. Be confused. Be angry. Be scared. Be everything you are. But without the act or the mask. Bring everything you have to bring. And let's talk.
I will show you what you've been missing. If your soul feels odd, if something feels off, I am always what's missing. You run to so many things when things feel wrong. So, my love, won't you write one more thing upon your heart in permanent ink? When your plans fail, when your heart breaks, when you have been given all that you are sure you can take, try always running to Me first. I guarantee things won't feel as wrong for long. When you are in sync with Me, you can be thrown in even the most treacherous, troubling things and it will still feel right in your soul."
So I suppose I am misplaced.
Just as He has intended me to be.
NOTE TO SELF: God does not forget. God does not misplace.
So, if it feels like God is far away, guess who moved?